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(no subject) [Jul. 9th, 2010|01:16 am]
What does ENFP need?

Social autonomy.
Joy in the present moment that doesn't detract from future possibilities.
The ability to implement insights.


Self-direction and self-reliance.
Opportunities to express themselves.
The ability to feel fulfilled in the present moment.


What does ENTJ need?

The ability to work with people.
Peace of mind.
The ability to consider and process "feeling" elements.

XNFP...most likely INFP.

Yup. Makes perfect sense.
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v-day [Feb. 14th, 2010|01:04 pm]
My coat rack fell over two days ago, and the raw oats I spilled last night are soaking into the carpet. I've worn these panties twice without washing, and there are fifteen empty granola bars and coffee cups from eight different vendors next to unopened Maxwell on what used to be my desk.

I spent the evening staring at my doorknob eating the chocolates you gave my roommate, waiting for you two to make love and knowing that you wouldn't. I was waiting more intently for you to say goodnight, everything is okay. Or better, say that everything isn't okay, but we'll change that when we fuck.

Well, at least you're not sick and I'm not high. At least I don't cry every time I look at you, yet. At least I actually loved you for a minute there, at least for that minute I didn't need emo prose to keep lying, "I'm alive." Contrived, copied pain beats that hole in my legs, beats emptiness and its sicker substitutions.
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(no subject) [Sep. 11th, 2006|04:52 pm]

This journal isn't as out of date as it may end up looking, I have a lot of friends only entries posted after this.

I'd really love to meet new people here, especially if your in one of the communities that I go to. I love the exchange ideas and viewpoints on anything in life, whether it's personal or not.

You could click on my info and read my interests, but to make it easier I'll just say that I tend to especially enjoy discussions with people who are interested in some aspect of one of the following:


That list is kind of my life in a nut shell, or at least the part of my life with the potential to generate meaning.

I hope to talk to you soon!

With love,
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(no subject) [Aug. 6th, 2005|12:37 am]
I had to do the dishes after dinner, so I decided to play some of the Count Basie stuff that I downloaded as I worked, and that got me all in a jazz-y sort of mood again. And then I downloaded some Gary Burton (vibraphonist) stuff that was amazingly awesome. Made me wanna go and play my marimba asap.

Which the Count Basie definitely didn't do, even though he is an amazingly awesome piano player.

That's one thing I definitely learned from camp a couple weeks ago, right there. Watching all of the amazing piano people, in both jazz and classical...I just couldn't see myself doing that. At all. Ever.

But watching one of the counselors play marimba at the faculty recital...I could TOTALLY see myself doing that. In fact, I wasn't nearly as impressed with him as a lot of other people seemed to be, probably just because I've been exposed to the marimba more than most of them.

It was actually kind of interesting. I was googling xylophone rags tonight, and a lot of college audition requirement sites came up. And they were listing some recommended audition repitoire, and I had already played some of it before.

Not as well as would be actually required for an audition, I'm sure, and only, like, two songs. But still. It was kinda cool.

Back at music camp, I remember being all overwhelmed and stresse out with all of the piano stuff, and I'd be walking around the floor with all the percussion stuff to get to a masterclass or something, and I'd see the signs on some of the doors: "Musser 4 1/3", "Yamaha 5 Octave", stuff like that. Meaning that those were the rooms dedicated to the marimba inside.

And I would just look at the doors and be like, "Now that's where I wanna be."

It's seriously been so long since I played on an actual full-size quality marimba. Which, trust me, is really an experience like no other...so amazing, how it just kind of eats you alive. It's so huge and rich and beautiful...ahh I love it.

Know what else I love?

My brand new marching xylophone!

At sectional Lenaway said I could make up a mallet part to the cadence, so I've been trying to track down some percussion features that include mallet parts to listen to lately...which is actually ridiculously hard to do. But I did get this one guy to send me his high school's cadence...it's fricken awesome.

So I listened to it a lot, and then I listened to our cadence...and I was definitely hearing mallet parts playing along with it that definitely weren't there in reality.

Now I just have to try and transcribe them. God I wish I had a better ear.

From googling xylophone rags I also found this one called "Dill Pickles Rag" (Found at http://audio45.archive.org/1/audio/WilliamHReitz/WilliamHReitz-DillPicklesRagXylophoneSolo.mp3 if anyone cares). It was actually the only xylophone rag I've found so far that I could actually listen to for free...Limewire's not a big fan of ragtime I guess. :((

But anyway, I decided that I want to learn to play that, so I decided to try and transcribe it. It was actually pretty comical, me trying to get my marimba from my living room into the computer room...all the tight squeezes...and a wheel fell off.

But then I got Dad to help me. And all was well.

And the song actually was a pretty good one to try and transcribe, because a lot of it was just made up of arpeggios (well...at least I think it was...I'm still pretty new to this whole concept). I still need to tweak it a lot though.

And I wish I could find a way to slow it down. I know of stuff you can download to slow down tracks off of CDs, but I don't think it works for mp3's.

Oh well. I may use the slow downer thing for some Gary Burton stuff tomorrow. We'll see.
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(no subject) [May. 29th, 2005|11:04 am]
[Current Mood |optimisticoptimistic]
[Current Music |the doors- strange days]

Well I'm actually gonna do a real update now, instead of taking random pointless quizzes and posting them at Greatest Journal.

Lately life has been pretty good. Marching band parade yesterday-- it's been about half a year since I did anything marching band oriented before that! To think of all that has happened in between there...and yet, everything was still so similar, like football season just ended really really recently.

But, yeah, a pretty good time. I mean, as far as parades go, after all. My sholders started cramping up real bad right at the beginning of it. And I even had the little wimpy dinky cymbals!

And then I came home and actually read other people's entries for the first time in ages, and read posts at a bunch of the communities I belong to. Which really felt sooo good, just to see how many people are so committed to a lot of the same things as I am-- vegetarianism, Buddhism, stuff like that. I felt so proud to be part of their ranks.

And THEN, this morning I was reading my science book (finals...gahhh), and actuallly ENJOYING it! Who would have thought, seriously?

Lately I just find everything so fascinating. There's so many things that I wanna know so much more about.

Ahh, and it's looking like it's gonna be a beautiful day out too, to top it all off. Though it's supposed to thunderstorm later. But those are a good bit of fun as well.

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(no subject) [Mar. 26th, 2005|04:40 pm]
After an insane sunbutter craze I have decided that it is absolutely necessary to brave the cold (which, btw, I am still SO BLOODY DISTRESSED about) and go running, seeing as I haven't gotten the slightest bit of exercise (aside from walking from Cinema 5 to Green Bowl yesterday...man oh man) since this exact time last week.

I've been eating more than normal lately too, and yet I weighed myself earlier this morning to find that I lost three pounds. Now how does that work?

Anyway, I also decided that it wasn't the smartest thing to go running directly after bunches and bunches of snacking, so I needed something nice and quick to occupy me for a few minutes.

And so here I am, with nothing else to say really except for that quite lengthy introduction.

Life has been pretty good lately. Yeah. Nothing too stressful happening in my life now that all the tests are over. I've actually been practicing as much as I should be for once, and still having time to do other fun things too.

Easter's tomorrow. UU goodness, then lunch/dinner at the twins'. Should be fun.

Got 25 dollars in an Easter card from my grandparents as well. Quite nice indeed.

And now I suppose that was long enough for my food to settle...gah, I really don't feel like running, but whatever...ttyl.
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(no subject) [Mar. 26th, 2005|07:58 am]
You scored as Existentialism. Your life is guided by the concept of Existentialism: You choose the meaning and purpose of your life.

“Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.”

“It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.”

--Jean-Paul Sartre

“It is man's natural sickness to believe that he possesses the Truth.”

--Blaise Pascal

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I disagree with that last quote there though.
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